The Only Eulogy I can Muster… with a Curious Sidenote

I woke up this morning to a breathtaking display from nature… the first significant snowcap to grace the San Francisco Peaks this season… and then I turned on my cell phone ( I was sort of away from the world yesterday afternoon and evening, offline…) and the big news of the moment flooded in: He’s gone… and I am not going to be able to do a eulogy that does him justice… I know that. But I just wanted to share the thing that Steve Jobs said that touched me the most over the years:

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

– that’s Steve Jobs to me. Yes… an amazing man with an uncanny business knack for blowing us away with the magic of his simple, elegant, world changing products… a man who seemed to ask “what if…” and “why not..” more than he ever questioned whether something was possible or not… but above all else, to me, he continually reminded me of the awesomeness and profound possibility that we have in this life.

Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition, he said. Yes… i think they do already know what you truly want to become. Sometimes the possibilities are overwhelming… even daunting or frightening. but I’ll bet you this much: Jobs was probably in a profound state of peace when he left us. I know he was. Because I saw how he brought impossibilities to reality, in order to bring us all into a fuller expression of our own potentials. And he did that by following his inner voice… the scary part that can tell us the truth…. even if it can only whisper ever so feintly on the tail of our conscious lives…. he was an artist adept at following that voice like few of us are ever brave enough to do.

I get disappointed… at myself, and heartbroken… when I see others and myself blocking that inner voice in order to do what is easier, more comfortable, or more acceptable. It’s our life work to get as congruent…as aligned as we can do with our own inner voices. It’s not easy.

Joseph Campbell puts it this way:

“The goal of life is to make your heartbeat match the beat of the universe, to match your nature with Nature.”

…and I think that’s what Jobs did. That’s what I am committing to do… wavering now and again? yes… absolutely. Who doesn’t? we’re human. But that’s what I come back to. Congruency with that inner voice that Jobs said already knows what you need to become. Listen to it as often as you can.

Oh… and one more thing. When we are all done digesting Steve’s exit (which to me is almost as big a deal as Jerry Garcia’s for some reason… not sure why it is hitting me the same, emotionally… but it is…) I have one more question: I’d like to know, Steve, how you made it 7 YEARS with pancreatic cancer. That’s epic. Amazing. Astounding. Have someone fill us in on the deets when you are able. thx 😉